It's been a mind blowing psychotic hell of a 2005. And as we move on to a brand new year ahead of us, which many perceive to be a "new start to a fantastic 2006" and begin reflecting upon the past year, desperately sorry for all the bullshit that happened then and forever resolving to include "be a new and changed person" in their annual rituals of coming up with new year resolutions, I think I've just stumbled upon a paradigm shift. As much as I would love to proudly declare that I've faithfully kept to my resolutions(if I even made any), truth is when I actually manage to spend a quiet moment alone with God amidst all this madness, I've come to realise that no matter how regretful we are of past memories, they never leave. Ditto for all our habits, whether the sweet and pleasant ones or that unconsciously detestable behaviour. They follow us like those mad surveyors from Orchard would, but the things you want to keep the most sometimes become so distant and that's when I become annoyingly persistant of my fears towards the future. As much attention is showered on the fact that we're all stuck at another crossroad, I am not going to turn all weepy and go all weak-kneed, bawling due to the prospect of my closest friends and best pals embarking on individual journeys towards that terribly misty and fragile place we call future. I know there's absolutely no need to because as people reach different phases in life, changes liberally sweep through like a god forsaken tsunami. But before those numerous unnecessary "goodbye"s and "I'll miss you"s, I just want to let you know that somethings are never gonna change. And it's all because of you.

It may be March 2006 already, but hey. The year has just started for me and everyone else who missed PAE aka first three months. Cheers to a whole new world!