To greener pastures

MOVED TO LIVEJOURNAL :)

Can I ask for anything more

It's been too long a while since I last had my hand on an entry! I can give you many reasons to account for my supreme disappearance but it's really not hard guessing where all those precious time have gone to. And it truly have been worth all the while ;)

For updates, I'm still working at Reds; where all the incessant joy and energy abounds! Still enjoying the company of the children but teachers' politics are unfortunately getting to me. The thought of it drives me insane since I'm only working with a handful of colleagues and friction can already rub off so easily. I imagine working with a herd and oh boy, that spells Big Trouble.

Ah, People and the fine intricate lines that hold them together, that break them apart, invisible to the the naked eye. It's impossible to have close-knitted relations with all beings and not human nature to live in solitude. So we bite the bullet and take a step of faith not knowing what to expect. Acceptance or rejection- we take a gamble, raise the stakes, and come what may. There are only two outcomes at the end of the day- to gain or lose. And that's the truth, it all boils down to that. To put it bluntly, to put it simply.

To put it in picture-



This is to lose myself and gain you <3

Gone with the wind

A quick post before I start packing for my trip this Thursday. And for a valid reason, it's not something yours truly is looking forward to boohoo!!!

Anyhoos, I've been religiously checking the letterbox everytime I get home hoping to catch a glimpse of a letter from either NUS or NTU but unfortunately, none has responded!! Why why why!! I bet they are out to stretch my patience to the limits before sending in anything- even if it means a rejection yeek.

22nd April; RSH fieldtrip- Butterfly Lodge & Hydroponics farm
And another monthly fieldtrip with the beloved kiddos :) I was assigned to watch over the younger children this time who I believed walked about aimlessly in the hot sun. Pity the guide who spoke in full sentences to the toddlers and N1s. The latter just answered her questions in baby talk; it was hysterical watching the 2 parties communicating back and forth :D












23rd April; One month old!

Because nothing is left unsaid, sometimes silence becomes the best conversation between us <3

Beautiful imperfections

MCYS latest advertising campaign seen on teevee "Think Family" got everyone around me talking. If you haven't seen it, try your luck on youtube (although I truly doubt anyone would bother uploading it there). Anyhoos, it got me thinking quite a bit especially after a friend shared how you will never meet the perfect one because it simply thinks one fellow to screw the entire chain up and the rest of the world will never be able to meet their destined soulmate .

Because honestly, nobody in this world can fulfill all the needs of another person. We are like intersecting circles. There will never be two circles that overlap perfectly. There’s always a little segment left uncovered. Which is why one keeps going frantically in search of that uncovered bit. But things are different when we learn to accept the circle part and even eventually come to appreciate it. How boring it would be to find a perfect fit. Nothing left to go in search of or to long for and pine for, no art, no music, no writing, simply nothing.

8th April; Lyd's belated 24th celebration
In my opinion, the plan didn't carry out as smoothly as it should because I was worrying too much she could tell through the look in my eyes. Nonetheless the company at dinner was delightful and laughter filled the room like flashes of the camera that never cease to end that fateful evening. We terribly annoyed the neighbouring diners whoops.









<3 For times I've been so brutally honest with my words, for times I've been so careless with my feelings and for times I've been so reckless with my behaviour. We're not a month old together but I can never find the words to express how much I treasure the times we have spent together, especially the impeccable moment we join hands to pray and submit to the Creator of all things big and small, of our relationship, to Him all over again.

The belated birthday post

Sometimes it almost feels like I’ve died and come back a few times over, and the past 20 years have been a series of disconnected lifetimes, each with its own players and sequence of events. It’s the hindsight-surrealism that attaches itself to all things gone by. You can’t believe everything that has happened had happened, so you must have died and returned. Or you are the only character that can somehow transcend the interspersed dimensions that dot the timeline.

In one world I am carnal. Cautious in another.

But I’ve always loved the same things, embraced the same ideas. If I’m lucky, I remember why. If not, I sometimes forget to feel.

28th March; Advanced celebration
The family celebrated my 20th three days before the actual since dad wouldn't be in town. It was delightful to have the entire family, together with my closest aunt and uncle, gathered at the dining area to eat merrily yay! :D



30th March; Last day being a teen
Thank you girls for the surprise!! :) Even though Chompchomp was closed that day, we had free sides at Aston's! I suppose that was a blessing in disguise. Thank you for trying to distract me with silly topics when the cake was served, thank you for availing yourselves that day, thank you for making things possible! It truly mattered :)







31st March; Twenty alas!
I literally dragged myself out of bed because as much as I wanted to be queen on the actual day, work remains a responsibility (unfortunately I don't call the shots). But lo and behold the principal decides to take the day off!! Another blessing in disguise :D Travin shares the same birthday as me so we celebrated his 5th and my 20th together!



1st April; Surprise surprise!
Thanks bff for popping by despite hectic schedule and exams you had to cope in school! :) Appreciate the little time spent catching up! xoxo

It was surprise after surprise! I must admit the date with May and Penny was a massive success!! I wasn't suspicious of anything at all and was completely caught off-guard! THANK Y'ALL FOR BEING THERE!! :)




Hii love!! <3 Thank you for being magnanimous when I had to make last minute changes to the plans you had in mind. Thank you for being ever accomodating to my schedules and never once declined any requests!! Thank you for being honest even though sometimes I know it's best not to but you've always been open :) Most importantly, thank you making me feel incredibly comfortable in my own skin I don't need to hide or pretend to be someone else. You're my comfort zone, Slurpee!! <3

A decent obsession

A rarefied of drama, a general abundance of questions, a charming falling-into-place, a recognition of the certain individual, a playground.

These days I catch myself smiling for no good reason while going about my own business. I am happy now, and for what I would be lying if I can hardly tell. I simply no longer feel like I need to do anything, or have anything, or worry about anything. I no longer plague myself with quests for meaning or justification or with petty questioning. There is no need; I have assuredness that faithfully sits in place in spite of my belief in the Murphy’s Law.

To rest in sweet embrace and put aside a fear is a challenge. But I'll learn to take things one step at a time together with you <3

16th March; The Miss Ong appointment
Flower from a girlfriend, dinner and a lot of catching up, shopping at the eleventh hour. I cannot ask for a better time spent together :) Dial 1800- SMS buddy whenever you need me Rah!!


18th March; RSH Changi Airport trip
Third outing with the children!! :) I'm learning to cherish every fieldtrip with them because I believe my days are numbered in RSH!! Either I quit or the principal fires me but I hope the latter doesn't happen so I can save some dignity on my end. Anyhoos, the viewing gallery was the highlight!! The kids watched in amazament and bewilderment as the planes take off. Even for myself, I never quite understand how an object that heavy could fly in the sky.